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    This pain is slowly killing me....

    Ok so I have vomitted at least four times in the past two hours from all of this pain. Not only am I dealing with my "normal" pain but I also have pleurisy and pneumonia so my chest and lungs are feeling like they are on fire and being pushed through a blender. I also have awful abdominal pain from this massive hernia that I am having repaired in 27 days. I just can't take this!!! I have been up until at least 5:30 everyday for the past two weeks because of all of this pain. I am trying to finish up my summer semester at school in addition to finishing up some classes from the spring that I couldn't finish due to being in and out of the hospital. I swear to god, this pain is going to kill me!!!

    Becky
    T8-9 according to latest scoring.......
    since 1/3/04

    I am the best at being me. No matter how that happens to be!!

    #2
    hi becky,

    you'll never be so lucky to have the pain kill you ...poor attempt at humor he says

    but want you to know i'm thinking of you. currently getting 2-3 hours sleep a night and a catnap or 2 during the day due to pain. i wish there was something i could do or say.
    Kindly,

    The Ketamine Kitty

    All the tears, all the pain, all the rage through the night (apolgies to the rewrite) RR

    Next time I die make sure I'm gone,
    don't leave 'em nothing to work on JT

    And I ain't nothin but a dream JM

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      #3
      Bill,
      I know the pain won't physically kill me but mentally it sure does. And be it poor attempt at humor or wishful thinking, some days I just can't decide. I am getting about 2-3 hours a night too, minus the cat naps because during the day I try to stay as busy as possible so that the day isn't just one long endless day of just the pain. I hope that makes sense. Nothing anyone can do or so really.... I was just venting

      Becky
      T8-9 according to latest scoring.......
      since 1/3/04

      I am the best at being me. No matter how that happens to be!!

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        #4
        So many of us in the same boat Becky.

        Cheers

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          #5
          Originally posted by bollefen View Post
          hi becky,

          you'll never be so lucky to have the pain kill you ...poor attempt at humor he says

          but want you to know i'm thinking of you. currently getting 2-3 hours sleep a night and a catnap or 2 during the day due to pain. i wish there was something i could do or say.
          I have a similar schedual.
          pain is not so terrible 24-7 though.

          im so sorry becky. I want you to be in less pain. I want it for you more than for me. you are in my thoughts girly.

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            #6
            Sorry you're still dealing with this and more Becky. Vent away. Many here know what you're going through.....deal with things the best you can. Good luck with your school work.....

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              #7
              The pains don't kill us - they only makes us wish they would. So, some of us go to bed every night, and pray to sleep and not wake up. And our leaders, in their infinite idiocy, persecuted Dr. Kevorkian, whom some people eventually need.
              Alan

              Proofread carefully to see if you any words out.

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                #8
                Originally posted by alan View Post
                The pains don't kill us - they only makes us wish they would. So, some of us go to bed every night, and pray to sleep and not wake up. And our leaders, in their infinite idiocy, persecuted Dr. Kevorkian, whom some people eventually need.
                the pain does kill us. it shortens our lives and causes immense stress. we don't need idiots like kevorkian. we need serious pain research and treatment. kevorkian wasn't interested in that.

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                  #9
                  Originally posted by alan View Post
                  The pains don't kill us - they only makes us wish they would. So, some of us go to bed every night, and pray to sleep and not wake up. And our leaders, in their infinite idiocy, persecuted Dr. Kevorkian, whom some people eventually need.
                  Amen to that!

                  "some of us go to sleep at night and pray that we don't wake up"

                  That would be an easy way out, I'd take it. Shooting myself would be to violent. But, I would need a 30 day advance warning to get things together so my family did't have to deal with confusion of my stuff.

                  They would understand.

                  As for research into getting rid of nerve damage pain a BIG laugh. Is there any such research? Please let me know. I am at year 20 of 24/7 chronic pain.

                  Living in a wheelchair is a breeze, easy! But living with pain is...............
                  Gary Is = L-1 Para for 34 years.....................
                  ~~~~~~~~~~

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                    #10
                    Originally posted by cass View Post
                    the pain does kill us. it shortens our lives and causes immense stress. we don't need idiots like kevorkian. we need serious pain research and treatment. kevorkian wasn't interested in that.
                    Why was he an idiot? He helped suffering people end their suffering by doing what they wanted to do.

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                      #11
                      Originally posted by Le Type Fran├žais View Post
                      Why was he an idiot? He helped suffering people end their suffering by doing what they wanted to do.
                      a great deal of the ppl he "helped" weren't ill or in pain. i don't want to start this up again. just do some research. he liked to watch ppl die, imo.

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                        #12
                        I have awfull also . Enough so I have suicide , not sucessfull , I know next time though I will be . I believe your guys pain is worse than mine . Why not just kill yourself ? Seriously , its never going to get any better , shit we all know this . I know next time when I have had enough i am gone . Very sad , but no alternative .

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                          #13
                          Originally posted by cass View Post
                          a great deal of the ppl he "helped" weren't ill or in pain. i don't want to start this up again. just do some research. he liked to watch ppl die, imo.
                          Glad you said "imo."

                          IMO, he did a service for those who could no longer manage life. I doubt that he liked to see people die, those he did let go had extensive sessions with psychologists to determine why they wanted to go. It wasn't just him that made the decision. I have read several case histories and several women who left had the blessings of their husbands and grown kids. Maybe what was his compassion that was mistaken for his pleasure?

                          Why in heavens name would anyone want to deny a persons choice of how they want to leave life? The laws will eventually change in the US.

                          I watched Frontline: The Suicide Tourist last night, and it was well done. It was easy to understand the mans, and his wife's decision to let him choose to die. I will watch the rest tonight. I probably won't go there myself because chronic pain is not considered a reason for letting a person to leave his or her body.

                          Sorry I never saw this topic brought up here before, but how is it anyones concern of how another human choses to leave?
                          Gary Is = L-1 Para for 34 years.....................
                          ~~~~~~~~~~

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                            #14
                            Originally posted by Garyis View Post
                            Glad you said "imo."

                            IMO, he did a service for those who could no longer manage life. I doubt that he liked to see people die, those he did let go had extensive sessions with psychologists to determine why they wanted to go. It wasn't just him that made the decision.
                            totally untrue. he never even asked for medical records.

                            http://thechp.syr.edu/death_with_dignity.htm

                            so, let's just get rid of cc and pwd. problem solved.

                            and, btw, read what his fellow med students wrote about him. dr. death epithet came from them.
                            Last edited by cass; 18 Jul 2011, 12:32 AM.

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                              #15
                              Originally posted by cass View Post
                              totally untrue. he never even asked for medical records.

                              http://thechp.syr.edu/death_with_dignity.htm

                              so, let's just get rid of cc and pwd. problem solved.

                              and, btw, read what his fellow med students wrote about him. dr. death epithet came from them.
                              Okay I will... I went to the site and read this and agree. However, both my wife (nurse) and I, my daughter (nurse) and sister (in the legal profession) all agree that none of wants to be on life sustaining machinery. We all have made it clear that if such an event happens to any of us we want to removed from the machine. But if some one as stated below is unable to make that choice then what ever the law says to do has to be done. I don't know what cc and pwd. are?

                              Let's forget Kevorkian and just look at assisted suicide. This I believe in, maybe not Dr. Death, as he was something of a mad man. But the idea of assisted suicide by medical professionals in a legal setting after the mental state of the clients have been evaluated should be okay as it is in Oregon. I do not support DR. Death, just the idea that he brought out to the public view.

                              This issue is all about personal beliefs and preferences, nothing to argue about and I apologize that I had sounded argumentative.

                              I agree with this but I am certain that my choice will be to go at the tie when the pain is out of control, perhaps when I can no longer get pain meds or they become no longer effective. How could anyone life with severe pain 24/7? I do it and have done it for years but I am loosing ground on maintaining.

                              "Absent clear and convincing evidence of the desires of people with disabilities to decline life-sustaining care or treatment, such care and treatment should not be withheld or withdrawn unless death is genuinely imminent and the care or treatment is objectively futile and would only prolong the dying process.

                              For the limited number of people who have lifelong cognitive disabilities and who have never had the ability to exercise self-determination regarding life-sustaining care and treatment, such care and treatment should not be withheld or withdrawn unless death is genuinely imminent and the care or treatment is objectively futile and would only prolong the dying process.

                              When doubt exists as to whether to provide life-sustaining care and treatment a presumption must always be made in favor of providing such care and treatment.
                              Last edited by Garyis; 18 Jul 2011, 1:15 AM.
                              Gary Is = L-1 Para for 34 years.....................
                              ~~~~~~~~~~

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