I wasn't gonna whine and look for pity or nothing, but geez man...my mom died in July from alzheimers and my brother died last week from cancer at 54. With mom it was kinda expected she had dementia for alot of years, and was actually a blessing. Yet still a sad sad time. Now my bro...man, he thought he had the flu or something, he had stomach pain, was swollen, couldn't keep food down. Finally went to the doc, with-in a 3 wk period he was diagnosed as being full of cancer and died.
It was freakin brutal, I still can't believe it, it all happened so fast. Having to plan 2 family funerals in 4mths is not right, it's just not. I guess, I have to be thankful he wasn't in that wicked pain for too long. The docs could not believe how aggressive it was either.
He was my big brother, and we were good buddies, he looked out for me when I moved out at 15 Iwas a punk-ass party animal.
He' d bring me food & stuff and make sure I ate and that I was OK.
He was a great guy, and he died way to young. Sometimes I so don't get it...My dad died of cirrohis at 48, the next year my hubby was murdered
at 20yrs old, an ex of mine did a major whack and did himself in 2yrs ago, then mom then my bro. Oh yeah, my accidents in there too. What a friggin
jinxed family man.
What I so don't get, is how there are diddlers, rapists & murderers out there healthy and happy as ever who grow to a ripe old age to continue to rape and torture children. Some families are just rotten through and through and squat happens to them. It just plain & simple don't seem fair!
Ok, I'm done, just had to rant a bit I guess, I'm mad he's gone, and I'm so not looking forward to Christmas, we have it here, this Xmas, no mom, no bro, this is really gonna suck.
Ok..Ok..I'm done..don't ever recall feeling sorry for myself till now actually, don't worry I'll snap out of it, but right now I'm gonna just feel bummed and well I'm allowed.....right... Thanks for letting me vent guys....
PS: Had to come back and say that I just realized why I posted this..cause I'm trying to be strong and ok for everyone else, I can't vent. I've always been everybodies rock, it sucks sometimes, but someones got to do it right? Grrrrrrrrr......
It was freakin brutal, I still can't believe it, it all happened so fast. Having to plan 2 family funerals in 4mths is not right, it's just not. I guess, I have to be thankful he wasn't in that wicked pain for too long. The docs could not believe how aggressive it was either.
He was my big brother, and we were good buddies, he looked out for me when I moved out at 15 Iwas a punk-ass party animal.
He' d bring me food & stuff and make sure I ate and that I was OK.
He was a great guy, and he died way to young. Sometimes I so don't get it...My dad died of cirrohis at 48, the next year my hubby was murdered
at 20yrs old, an ex of mine did a major whack and did himself in 2yrs ago, then mom then my bro. Oh yeah, my accidents in there too. What a friggin
jinxed family man.
What I so don't get, is how there are diddlers, rapists & murderers out there healthy and happy as ever who grow to a ripe old age to continue to rape and torture children. Some families are just rotten through and through and squat happens to them. It just plain & simple don't seem fair!
Ok, I'm done, just had to rant a bit I guess, I'm mad he's gone, and I'm so not looking forward to Christmas, we have it here, this Xmas, no mom, no bro, this is really gonna suck.
Ok..Ok..I'm done..don't ever recall feeling sorry for myself till now actually, don't worry I'll snap out of it, but right now I'm gonna just feel bummed and well I'm allowed.....right...
Thanks for letting me vent guys....PS: Had to come back and say that I just realized why I posted this..cause I'm trying to be strong and ok for everyone else, I can't vent. I've always been everybodies rock, it sucks sometimes, but someones got to do it right? Grrrrrrrrr......
Sorry MG 
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I don't get it either. Bad stuff shouldn't happen to good people. It's NOT fair! Your'e such an awesome girl. If you got what you deserved not a damn bad thing would ever happen in your life. You certainly have brightened my day on many occassions here.
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