its been just over a year in this new life and i have felt my mental state get worse and worse. i am in therapy and on an antidepressant but they don't seem like they are working. i find myself getting jealous and bitter at people just living their lives. the act of seeing someone walk across the room will trigger it. i have constant flashbacks to my old life, and the feeling that my best days are behind me is overwhelming. i spent new years eve alone for the first time ever. its taken just one year for basically everyone i know to forget me. if it was just the lack of mobility i think id be fine but the loss of sexual function is devastating along with every other in-dignifying aspect of this condition. i don't even feel human anymore.
i don't know if i have what it takes to pull myself out of this.
i don't know if i have what it takes to pull myself out of this.
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