37 years today!

[fuentejps]

keep after it, you are winning the war brother.........

[Sarafino]

I also hit 37 years this past April. I'm with you. I feel good for what my body has been through. But, I am definitely starting to feel the changes coming. Transfers are not as crisp. I'm hiring help more to do things I used to do, just to save energy. Having lost a couple good friends recently, I am seeing my mortality as something sooner rather than later. I'm looking at how I can be more of a participant in the world rather than just a spectator (easier said than done). Just lots more reflection and even depression, that was never an issue before. I was always a looking forward kind of guy, but with less to look forward to (other than the slow decline) one can't help but look back. I find myself envious far more often now of circumstances I used to just brush aside. Somehow it hit me this year that my life really does suck. It was almost like "How did I not know this?".

I also have been having these thoughts. Like ?how can I be ok with this, it?s a nightmare? but then I go on for a bit being ok with it. Been being very reflective and looking back a lot and what is gone. I can hardly believe how much I used to do and as the years pass I am able less and less, and become more of a spectator. I know part of it is age, but part is the disability.

[DeadEye]

Happy anniversary....a few days late!

[Tim C.]

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