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    I hate almost everybody and everything about this f'ed up sci life

    now i have your attention, maybe, that's all. nothin more to add. ok, pity party time

    how could i forget this:
    plz add your rant. pretend we're sitting and having a drink somewhere. what do you hate the most about this sci life?

    #2
    Cass, I'd love to have a drink somewhere. Even though I am not person with SCI, I consider myself living the SCI life.
    Going to the lake for 3 days required both our van and truck for equipment, other family members and a lot of planning. An aide came in the mornings.The days of just the 2 of us being to stay there alone are long past. I feel like I never want to go there again because it only reminds of of everything we have lost.
    It sucks.

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      #3
      Originally posted by cass View Post
      I hate almost everybody and everything about this f'ed up sci life
      Sounds reasonable to me.
      Like Linda, I'm not the SCI'd one, but it seems to have defined my life for the last several years.

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        #4
        sometimes you got to hate something or you might just SPLODE. it will pass, but proly not as fast as your awesome sunshine and butterfly moments.

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          #5
          I wished it just would have killed me at the time as leave me like this coming on 36 years....a few more minutes and I would have been gone....was already passed out anyway a few more minutes and it would have been over.

          Art
          Art

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            #6
            Life is what it is though. You can end it at any time but then what? Nothingnessss which for some people is a better option in their minds.
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              #7
              Originally posted by Art454 View Post
              I wished it just would have killed me at the time as leave me like this coming on 36 years....a few more minutes and I would have been gone....was already passed out anyway a few more minutes and it would have been over.

              Art
              Sometimes I feel that way, too. I passed out on the way to
              the hospital and it would have been a peaceful end, rather
              than the beginning of a lifetime of agony.

              Since I have to be disabled, I wish my injury had left me with
              an even line of paralysis. Being more paralyzed on one side of
              my body is hell on my back.

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                #8
                Originally posted by Art454 View Post
                I wished it just would have killed me at the time as leave me like this coming on 36 years....a few more minutes and I would have been gone....was already passed out anyway a few more minutes and it would have been over.

                Art
                i hear you, art. but i am very glad you are here. and that goes for everybody here, whether sci yourself or living it w/somebody else. here's to us all, cause nobody else is ever really gonna understand.

                and not just sci. anybody living with a catastrophic injury or a loved one with one. i know any dis is bad, but dammit, when you literally can't live w/o some help, it fin sux. it fin sux for us and fam. i have no fam. but there's many out there who do. you must want to run sometimes. i often wonder if it had been him, not me...all i know is i lived before taking care of ppl. and i have lived 18 yrs taking care of my son. wth now?

                and, for the fam out there, it must break your heart, soul and body. SUCKS.

                ok, raising another one for us all. sorry for rant.

                Last edited by cass; 7 Sep 2010, 1:15 AM.

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                  #9
                  Originally posted by mr_coffee View Post
                  Life is what it is though. You can end it at any time but then what? Nothingnessss which for some people is a better option in their minds.
                  "life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." john lennon.

                  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uldu_1-JCJE

                  sean (beautiful boy, all grown up), singing john's song to john's mom (and, indirectly, to his own mom):

                  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHsdvMfvkWY
                  Last edited by cass; 7 Sep 2010, 1:40 AM.

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                    #10
                    Originally posted by mr_coffee View Post
                    Life is what it is though. You can end it at any time but then what? Nothingnessss which for some people is a better option in their minds.
                    Your statement assumes that the person who believe non-existence is better than their consciousness is automatically wrong. I don't agree with that, Cory. I'm not suicidal and have never attempted it, but I sympathize with those who've done it. I think some people find themselves in circumstances in life that are overwhelmingly devastating and I can see where the biological urge to survive is surpassed by the desire to end the suffering, whether it be physical or emotional.

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                      #11
                      I hear you. The pain is annoying and constantly knaws at every facet of your life. I feel like I just make it through the day with nothing to look forward too. Maybe it will get easier but it seems like it just another day of agony. I find it hard to be interested in things. I don't know what the answer is but someday there may be a cure. I have run out of painkillers and have to go beg from the doctors again and I just feel like my life is a rut that I can't dig my way out of. I used to be smart but now my life just seems to be about trying to get by in life. I have a wife and two kids and some pets that make me feel better but when I am on my own life sucks. We all need to bitch it's the only way we can deal with this crap.

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                        #12
                        I forgot to mention but my bowels seem to dictate my freedom.

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                          #13
                          the pain, leading to loss of job of many yrs, the teenage son stress by myself, the paternal gp's wanting him out of state at tday, leaving me absolutely alone, etc etc are def doing me in. 4 yrs ago, woulda been manageable...they fin don't get it. haven't even been here in 5 yrs. but...all my fault, course. i put too much on him. fin kid doesn't even empty garbage. gimme break.

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                            #14
                            the longing of wanting to just do the things you loved before the injury..

                            playing sports, freedom.. the options
                            you wouldnt do 90% of the things you wanted to do.. but you no longer have the option to do it
                            c5/c6 brown sequard asia d

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                              #15
                              Originally posted by Le Type Fran├žais View Post
                              Your statement assumes that the person who believe non-existence is better than their consciousness is automatically wrong. I don't agree with that, Cory. I'm not suicidal and have never attempted it, but I sympathize with those who've done it. I think some people find themselves in circumstances in life that are overwhelmingly devastating and I can see where the biological urge to survive is surpassed by the desire to end the suffering, whether it be physical or emotional.
                              I agree with what your saying but I didn't say ALL, I said some believe that nothingness is better than their current state of living which is true. Cass is in a shitty situation. There is no right answer to make cass feel better because life keeps on moving along and it doesn't care if you are miserable or happy.

                              When I was in the suicidal state of mind I didn't have hate towards anyone just general hate of life in general. The only thing that kept me going was family and looking forward to what the future might bring.

                              So i'm agreeing that cass life does suck in a big way sometimes but I hope something in the distance will keep you going.
                              Last edited by mr_coffee; 7 Sep 2010, 4:23 AM.
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